Posted: 8:23 a.m. Thursday, Dec. 12, 2013
Lea Michele is opening up in her first TV interview since the passing of boyfriend Cory Monteith.
The Glee star appeared on The Ellen DeGeneres Show Thursday, who candidly talked about her grieving process after losing someone so dear to her.
“It’s certainly been a pretty rough year, but I’ve been surrounded by such great people, such great family,” Lea said, adding, ”It’s pretty intense. And then if you smile it’s like she’s so happy and you know if you look sad they’re like she’s terrible. It’s just really hard there’s so many different emotions and to kind of have people watching every step of the way..”
Wen Ellen asked the actress about her decision to go back to work soon after the death, Lea reveals, “Ryan Murphy, who is so amazing, he came to Kate’s house [Lea was temporarily staying at pal Kate Hudson's house] and he said what do you want to do, whatever you want to do we’ll do. I said I have to go back to work. We have to this is, they’re my family and what people also don’t understand is that going to work is no harder than being at home and being in the house and opening up a closet and seeing a pair of shoes. There’s this grief goes with you everyday whatever you’re doing. When there’s great moments, hard moments so I’d rather, for me, be at work with the people who I love that are going through and it obviously has it’s own triggers, but at the end of the day I feel so safe there. And like I said, they’re my family.”
Before wrapping up the interview, Ellen reminded Lea that Corey officially announced he was dating the star when he appeared on the show before he passed away. Lea responded, “I know! It was it’s one of my favorite memories I remember when he came home that night he kind of puffed out his chest and he was like I talked about you on “Ellen” today and I was so happy he’s such a private person and I literally lived everyday of my life feeling like the luckiest girl in the whole world. I just thought he was the greatest man and so at that moment, that memory, it means so much to me.”